Entrevista con un narcisista

 El narcisismo en un trastorno de la personalidad que convierte a quien lo padece en un maltratador psicológico, de efectos devastadores en su pareja, familia y entorno laboral. Es muy curioso ver como una persona consciente de padecer este trastorno, que está recibiendo terapia, nos describe el comportamiento que podemos esperar de un narcisista.

Nunca - Mayans MC Intro Song (David Hidalgo & Los Refugio Tiernos)

 No tan famosa como Sons of anarchy, pero muy buena serie. Creo que sigue estando en HBO.

Mother of exiles the torch of hope

In the toss of the tempest threw us Madison’s rope

But the brazen giant with limbs astride

Blocks the golden door to the U S of Lies screaming

Fuck your huddled masses

Scrub our floors cut our grasses

I am a wolf a wild cur

Cut from the pack with blood on my fur

And every howl marks a debt

Cause a beaten dog never forgets

Broke our brown backs chasing Mr White’s dream

That Bill of Rights was just a pyramid scheme

We clawed to the middle and pray for the end

Don’t let our children’s children grow up to be them

Fuck your pale seniority

Go build your walls

We own the majority

I am a wolf a wild cur

Cut from the pack with blood on my fur

Every howl marks a debt

Cause a beaten dog never forgets

"Come join de murder", The White buffalo

Si no habéis visto Sons of Anarchy, no veáis el vídeo porque os enteraréis del final.

Letra de "Come join the murder"

There's a black bird perched outside my window

I hear him calling

I hear him sing

He burns me with his eyes of gold to embers

He sees all my sins

He reads my soul

One day that bird, he spoke to me

Like Martin Luther

Like Pericles

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

And He'll make you king

On a blanket made of woven shadows

Flew up to heaven

On a raven's glide

These angels have turned my wings to wax now

I fell like Judas grace denied

On that day that he lied to me

Like Martin Luther

Like Pericles

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

And He'll make you king

I walk among the children of my fathers

The broken wings, betrayal's cost

They call to me but never touch my heart, now

I am too far

And I'm too lost

All I can hear is what he spoke to me

Like Martin Luther

Like Pericles

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

And He'll make you king

So now I curse that raven's fire

You made me hate, you made me burn

He laughed aloud as he flew from Eden

You always knew, you never learn

The crow no longer sings to me

Like Martin Luther

Or Pericles

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

Come join the murder

Come fly with black

We'll give you freedom

From the human trap

Come join the murder

Soar on my wings

You'll touch the hand of God

And He'll make you king

And He'll make you king

Suzanne Vega - Luka

 Letra de Luka, de Suzanne Vega:

My name is Luka

I live on the second floor

I live upstairs from you

Yes I think you've seen me before

If you hear something late at night

Some kind of trouble, some kind of fight

Just don't ask me what it was

Just don't ask me what it was

Just don't ask me what it was

I think it's because I'm clumsy

I try not to talk too loud

Maybe it's because I'm crazy

I try not to act too proud

They only hit until you cry

And after that you don't ask why

You just don't argue anymore

You just don't argue anymore

You just don't argue anymore

Yes I think I'm okay

I walked into the door again

If you ask that's what I'll say

And it's not your business anyway

I guess I'd like to be alone

With nothing broken, nothing thrown

Just don't ask me how I am

Just don't ask me how I am

Just don't ask me how I am

My name is Luka

I live on the second floor

I live upstairs from you

Yes I think you've seen me before

If you hear something late at night

Some kind of trouble, some kind of fight

Just don't ask me what it was

Just don't ask me what it was

Just don't ask me what it was

They only hit until you cry

And after that you don't ask why

You just don't argue anymore

You just don't argue anymore

You just don't argue anymore

La ruta de los lobos

 No me gusta mucho la lluvia, pero dicen que hacer esta ruta es la mejor forma de conocer Cantabria. Tal vez no sería capaz de hacerla, pero disfruté con el vídeo.

Letra de "The devil and the huntsman", de Daniel Pemberton y Sam Lee:

Young man came from hunting faint, tired and weary

What does ail my Lord, my dearie?

Oh, brother dear, let my bed be made

For I feel the gripe of the woody nightshade

Men need a man would die as soon

Out of the light of a mage's moon

But it's not by bone, but yet by blade

Can break the magic that the devil made

And it's not my fire, but was forged in flame

Can drown the sorrows of a huntsman's pain

This young man he died fair soon

By the light of a hunter'e moon

'Twas not by bone, nor yet by blade

Of the berries of the woody nightshade

Oh Father dear lie and be safe

From the path that the devil made

Alice Cooper - Poison

 Letra de Poison, de Alice Cooper:

Your a cruel device

Your blood, like ice

One look, could kill

My pain, your thrill

I wanna love you but I better not touch

(Don't touch)

I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop

I wanna kiss you but I want it too much

(Too much)

I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison running through my veins

You're poison I don't wanna break these chains

Your mouth, so hot

Your web, I'm caught

Your skin, so wet

Black lace, on sweat

I hear you calling and it's needles and pins

(And pins)

I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name

Don't wanna touch you but you're under my skin

(Deep in)

I wanna kiss you but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison running through my veins

You're poison I don't wanna break these chains, poison

One look

(One look)

Could kill

(Could kill)

My pain, your thrill

I wanna love you but I better not touch

(Don't touch)

I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop

I wanna kiss you but I want it too much

(Too much)

I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison running through my veins

You're poison I don't wanna break these chains, poison

(Poison)

I wanna love you but I better not touch

(Don't touch)

I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop

I wanna kiss you but I want it too much

(Too much)

I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison

Yeah, well I don't wanna break these chains, poison

(Poison)

Runnin' deep inside my veins

Burnin' deep inside my brain, poison

(Poison)

I don't wanna break these chains

(Poison)

(Poison)

Poison

I don't wanna break these chains

Aerosmith - I Don't Want To Miss A Thing

Letra de "I don't want to miss a thing", de Aerosmith:

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,

(chorus)
I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, and I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
And I wondering what you are dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you are seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together,
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever and forever forever

(chorus)
I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, and I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

 And I don't want to miss one smile,
I don't want to miss one kiss,
I just want to be with you right here with you,
Just like this, I just want to hold you close,
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment,
For all of the rest of time

(chorus)

 I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby, and I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Hace mucho que no escribía en el blog, también hace mucho que no tenía nada que mereciera la pena de ser escrito. Anduve buscando la felicidad, como siempre sin saber a donde ir, y encontré más tormentas y más desastres.

Me enamoré de alguien sin darme cuenta de que lo que amaba no era a él, sino lo que mi imaginación había creado. Resultó ser la peor persona que he conocido, llegó a superar lo anterior que ya era difícil, pero esa es otra historia que no es la que me hace escribir hoy. tal vez algún día le dedique unos párrafos aunque esa historia ya no me importe.

Hace poco conocí a otra persona y, contra todo lo que llevaba seis meses pensando, me volví a enamorar. Esta vez no fue de una ilusión, ni de unos ojos bonitos, fue de él mismo de una forma que no puedo explicar. Me imaginé un futuro tranquilo a su lado, compartiendo nuestros buenos y malos momentos, nuestras risas y nuestros días oscuros. Me daba miedo porque no quería sufrir, pero aunque lo pensara en algún momento no fui capaz de parar. No era muy guapo, ni muy rico, pero le miraba a la cara y sentía que era él lo que había buscado toda mi vida... Sí, toda esta tontuna con 54 y cicatrices en el alma, y mi corazón en sus manos a riesgo de que lo destrozara.

Es la única persona con quien he mirado a los ojos haciendo el amor, como si quisiera confirmarme a mí misma que era él, porque hasta los recuerdos borró de cualquier otro. Alejó mis miedos, espantó mis pesadillas.

Acabaron las vacaciones y me dijo que lo nuestro no llegaría a buen fin, que éramos diferentes y que mejor dejarlo ahora porque después sería más doloroso. Sus explicaciones dolían, la verdad dolía aún más; yo me enamoré, él no. Por pensar bien, quiero creer que se dio cuenta de lo que yo sentía y prefirió no seguir por no hacer más daño.

Yo me he quedado como quien ve partir un tren donde se alejan sus sueños, su alegría y su esperanza, y no puedo aún dejar de desear estar con él. Pero no deseo ver a la persona distante que me ofrece esa amistad de las relaciones acabadas, esa en que se dice "nos veremos" y no vuelves a verle. Quiero estar con la persona con quien caminé cogidos por la calle, la persona que me besaba, que cocinaba mientras yo le miraba sentada en la barra de su cocina. Echo horriblemente de menos al hombre con quien me sentaba a fumar al sol de la mañana, el que tocaba melodías inventadas, el que me hacía reír, el que me enseñaba orgulloso lo que él mismo había hecho o arreglado en su casa. Echo de menos a quien me dijo que necesitaba oír de mí un te quiero. 

De alguna forma siempre pensaré que hubiéramos sido felices si me hubiera querido. Hoy me despido de él con esta canción que para mí siempre será la suya.